Animosity - You Can't Win lyrics

I never wanted to fall from the top of the world but here I am And now I am tired and f**ing ugly and I hate it but it's all I can be Locked up, f**ed up but I know I'm not the only one I hear that life goes on, but I guess just not for everyone Consumed by bliss that now all I do is miss The memories can make me happy but now I'm f**ing pissed! Hopeless Irrationally searching every single dimension to find a way to bring me closer to you It's night like these when my jaw is being pried off the sides of my face and it feels as if somehow I swallowed a f**ing shoe I want to tear out my throat so just for a minute I might be able to finally breathe What has happened to me? Not a day goes by when I didn't wish I were still living in September 2005 I never wanted to live this way or to feel this pain And I can't stop asking why Now I see that life is just a game Sometimes everyday with out you, is another day I wish I didn't have to go through It still hits me like a brick everyday and it will never go away I never wanted you to go away I hang my head deep into my chest, tormented to realize that for now this is the best I want my life back, I want your life back more than anything I never wanted to fall from the top of the world but here I am, and to some degree I always feel like sh** because your...Gone, forever Gone, taken from me Gone, f** f** f** f** f** f** f** I used to think depression had nothing to do with me Now every day of my life I'm faced with despair and misery Because some dumb f**ing a**hole made some bad choices, and he landed on you, and we all pay the price...Now I know the meaning of being alone