Angel Haze - Smile N Hearts lyrics

[Intro] You know my mama use to always say that struggle is worth it Because within struggle is purpose And purpose is where your worth is And a lot of people don't wanna live to see that To me, they should [Verse 1] It's hard to dream with your eyes wide open But if you keep 'em closed you can't really see where you're going And maybe I'm just a dreamer and the world ain't really my home And on the outside of my mind is the only place I belong And I'm trapped inside a soul that's just way too broke to be strong And that's trapped inside a life that's just way too long to be gone And I give sh** I give yeah it takes too much to be whole The irony in that sh** man sometimes is great to be wrong And I smile but sh** gets harder 'cause my heart is growing Further apart from the other vessels that make me more of my soul That make me less of a help to everything that surrounds me It's tough to know I'm lost but it's harder to think I found me Lining all the remnants the pain all his descendants My fear has never been falling I'm d**hly scared of ascendance Damn, but I guess that's gotta mean something I'm out of this world then I'm just hoping that I leave something [Chorus] Smile n hearts, there are things that tear us all apart But I still smile with my heart, Even though that sh** bound to be torn apart And I, I still (dream) I still (dream), I-I still (dream), I still (dream) (I believe in you, no matter what we've been through, I believe) [Verse 2] I met a kid out in Vegas desperately wanna make it He said he runnin' from pain and just wants to know what will shake it His girlfriend just had a baby, he out and he ain't around Ain't got the sk**s to raise no kid, I never got to be a child Never got to figure out what I wanted for mine, my dad bounced like a f*ggot My mom was gone all the time, my stomach touching my spine I had to go f**ing grind, I took everything I wanted The world was never f**ing mine These lies, they keep on feeding me lies The son of a generation they keep denying me shine They sayin' the world is mine but won't allow me to rise So I got hell all in my heart and hatred all in my eyes I'm froze, from my head to my soul And I give sh** I give but it takes too much to be whole, yeah Ah, I just want someone to believe in me, tell me they know I'm hurt But the goodness is all they see in me and [Chorus] Smile n hearts, there are things that tear us all apart But I still smile with my heart, Even though that sh** bound to be torn apart And I, I still (dream) I still (dream), I-I still (dream), I still (dream) (I believe in you, no matter what we've been through, I believe) [Verse 3] Beaten to a pulp, from the bottom she made it You can see I'm on the scan no discards have honestly fading She look up into the mirror and what she seeing she hating So much evil in this world and it's beauty just masquerades it They hide behind all their secrets, hide behind all their pain I've been through so f**ing much sh** it's about to drive me insane Sometimes I wish all the beating would knock it all out of my brain Someone would just take the picture and crop me out of the frame Yeah, and that's what's stolen my worth Don't judge me about my appearance my soul is lower than dirt My heart's been broken so many times I don't know if it works And all I have is this smile and {that's the loneliest hurt} And I'm froze stuck up in this place I only feel alone And I give sh** I give, but it takes too much to be whole I want someone to f**ing love me, I'm tired to coming last to everything that's above me [Interlude] And I smile, maybe it's a parody of all the tragedy inside us We keep secrets like abortions, Life stolen then frozen within our psyche's lies on ice Dancing with the demons, lips that rarely speak the truth Acclimated by what we've been through, the mind is a terrible thing to waste And at the same time it's a terrible place to wait I'm wasting away, starting to expire, I see fire when your teeth show Pride often of ego, thrown off like parts between syllables Hiccups that can't be scared away, dreams not easy to decipher, conquer But I still smile too but and inside I'm beating my knuckles to a bloody pulp And even still I always wonder wonder what it would feel like to be beautiful To feel like rain on rose petals, to feel like sunshine And have a life without suffering constantly I find myself awaken through it all and inevitably risen Rippen like fruit branches on the tree of knowledge And again I wonder why the good have to suffer What it means to be gentle, what we mean to one another What it means to be a lover [Outro] Smile n hearts, there are things that tear us all apart But I still smile with my heart, Even though that sh** bound to be torn apart And I, I still dream You still dream, We still dream Everyday, 'cause I believe in you