If eternity is a gift, reality is the present Maybe Heaven is just one big lesson If trying is effort and hardship and essence Then, maybe its nuclear Maybe I'm just a weapon And maybe my neglectence was really affection What ruined it for me was bended perception See, in my church women f**ed with pastor To make it okay, he would f** up the lecture So, what do I believe in? The scriptures that readin', the bibles, the chapters, the verses, the meanin' Naw, what I'm askin' for is deeper than clarity My mom survived, but she struggled through therapy How do you ignore the signs? How the f** you ignore the crime but punish the victim that can't afford to pay the f**in' fine Have a child that [?] their minds and tell them it ain't bravery Lock those words behind the cell and force them into slavery Stripped them of originality, dressed them in conformity Tell them that their differences are blatant ma** deformities Ripped their vocals from their throat to give them someone else's voice Tell them that it hurt you too, but you don't really have a choice Let them lose themselves, abuse, misuse themselves 'Cause they were denied the option to choose themselves I hate this world It's so f**in' cold That's why I feel with my heart but live with my soul But this world, this world is still my home And heaven's a place I haven't gone Could it be a method, used to restrain you I've seen hell like Satan's guardian angel And that's why I do anything to get outta here God's a magician that won't let me disappear So take me away from here Judge me by everything but my mistakes of fear Cause so many won't make it here No, they won't make it here If heaven was a mile away, I would try to let it come to me Prove that God loves me, let him bring the sun to me Come search for me so I stop tryin' find you If heaven is real, let you be my reminder... Let him be my reminder If heaven is real, let him be my reminder (Speaking a different language) Creations are half of designer So if heaven is real, you can be my reminder