Angel Haze - Element lyrics

[Verse 1] 1991 a star was born My soul was torn in the exact moment that they umbilical cord was gone And honestly I still think I'd rather stay dead Cause I'm still a monster that's rage fed in Haze head But I was born into a ton of curses Same blood, same genes, just a different purpose And a different person like all around My life was f**ed up and I let it tear me down And I always dressed in skirts-es And I always slept in churches Didn't believe in sh** so I always felt so worthless Molested at age 7 nobody ever noticed So I locked myself inside myself and had to keep on growing Of course you'd never know it That type of pain is the [?] In fact it's been 13 years, I still feel a strain on my shoulders [Verse 2] It's 2001 and I'm hoping to die I'm writing suicide letters I mailed to the sky My biggest question is why That f**ing question remains But since I sound my purpose I have never felt pressure the same All of the pressure was drained And God was here I know it I didn't choose where I started, but I did choose where I'm going [Hook 2x] Every day is hard work: struggle, pain, and dedication I know it gets hard to end the pain for preservation If you make it through then every day is a celebration If you know where you're going everyday's a reservation [Verse 3] It's 2007 I'm still looking to heaven But I'm thinking murder now and I'm using hate as my weapon I'm using pain as my leverage I want them to suffer too Almost lost my whole mind look at what that struggle do Insanity's blissful in silence Almost met mental asylums Outside I'm a quiet storm, but inside a fist full of violence Dear Ty, I'm sorry that you're gone I wish you could come back to life so I could k** you on my own f** it all motherf**ers I've made it on my own And I've never had sh**, man I made it here alone With my brother as my crutch and my mother as my soul And I didn't choose where I started, but I chose where I'mma go [Hook 2x]