Anemic - Blood Roses lyrics

[Verse 1] For you I sympathetically wrote a poem, not a rap This time I won't sin because I'm a crowd that doesn't clap They just stared, and stood there in fear You see, it's sympathy to show that I don't care Emotions should not be commented on or shunned I lack experience, but to me you are so much fun These feelings started back in November and built but I bottled it I had too much pride when I said nothing and swallowed it If I ever lost you, I'd cry, I'd feel like I died Don't leave my life, no, I'm done with being shy I have feelings for you, and I mean it because it is true Other than you, emotionally, I could never been seen through I'm so confused, by my last girlfriend, I was abused It didn't mean anything, you just made me think I'd lose You said "ew" but I ignored it, took those sad feelings and destroyed it I was resilient and strong for telling you feelings exploited I'll admit, I was a dick to my former best friend Jace Not to impress, nevertheless, just to see your smiling face All I ever seized was your happiness and thrill I do care about you and I always have, always will [Chorus] So long as our love is true, I can't frown I stand tall as a king without his crown The queen stands beside me now We take a bow, before the crowd This beauty brings a lonely tear to my eye If you left me I would die and I don't know why It started with trivial rumors and commotion Now it's pure emotion, look at the blood roses [Verse 2] These words are hard to express stronger than the rest It's a test for the emotions put into words the best A relationship with commitment - that is what my goal is And I search into your heart - that's where my soul is We've been friends since July, dating for a few days But you still make me gaze off into space These thoughts race, I should've done it sooner And I'm certain when I did it, I could've been smoother But I was not, but that won't make me drop So long as you're my adrenalin, my love will never stop I know it sounds bad, and my lyrics are so cheesy But saying what love means to you out loud just isn't easy Sometimes I have to set my friends aside- And oblige for you, steppin' away from these thoughts of suicide What makes it hard is having no one to love you Harsh mother, no father, no role model, it is just you But through the struggle, I bottled this love, livin' a lie Combining sadness and love brings a tear in my eye Just know I love you and that I always have Just knowing you're at my side makes me much less sad [Chorus x2] And now it's gone...