AndyNoHoes - Devilish Thoughts lyrics

[Verse:1] Devilish thoughts is just fillin' my mind Sit in my room and I just don't know why Got the demons beside and they feedin' me lies Contemplating 'bout just endin my life To take it or not I do not deserve this They makin' me certain that sh** is not worth it What is my purpose I'm tired of searchin' I'm losing my mind keep on feelin deserted My outlook on life is the worst I'm blessed with a blessing My blessing is also my curse Don't understand why I can't find my roots 'cuz I definitely came up straight from the dirt Beat myself up over sh** that I do not control Willing to sell my own soul For riches and fame For b**hes and money f** facing a problem id rather be runnin' Hoping this weed is so loud That it's muting the voices inside of my head Living for nothin the reason I'd rather be dead And the reason the noose is surrounding my neck My self esteem low to the ground so I put on a mask its a shame Don't be surprised when you In my position And feelin' the same and you askin for help With a gun to your brain I'm disturbed sick in the mental But down with the sickness Resisting on grabbing the metal Pathetic I'm hoping my hope is replenished A menace like Denis It never feels pleasant the feeling of being rejected I'm fearin the fear of not being accepted Neglection is worst when it's in your reflection It's nothing a session could fix and I call it depression Rather just hide in my shell This sh** ain't good for my health My happiness rises from constantly thinking Of thoughts of erasin myself Id rather be dead I wish this was hell I'd rather be scorching in flames I'd rather be forced to be tortured With pitchforks and turned into corpses And mortified in fourty-four different ways Look at me now I'm dead Lookin at all of the blood on my bed Look at the outcome of negative thoughts And I'm hanging I'm dangling right from neck This is what you do not want This is the reason I hate me a lot This the result of just losin connection With all your surroundings And this the result of them devilish thoughts