Verse 1
I've been hurt I've seen the worse Im living with a curse
I've tried to fight my demons yet they spawn right out the dirt
I swear they keep looking up at me like I'm in a skirt
Every time I seem to turn around they all disperse
My backs against the wall who the f** do I just call
Countless times I asked for yall but in the end yall watched me fall
This is real sh** said id be better off dead I'm so lost in the sauce Ima zombie in my head
I'm just fed up with my life I can't seem to do right why I'm spilling how I feel cause im alone again tonight
I can't compete with a Porsche that has the power of a horse if I could I would just know I care about you girl
I made mistakes that done cost me
Done things that were costly
Escaped a drive by I'm lucky I ain't get caught b
Forever I'll be tainted you see the blood that has faded
Why I'm so adjacent complacent as well as patient
2016 really screwed me like a screwdriver
Ever since then I've been to trying to re ignite like a forest fire
Adding to the flame I guess gasoline ain't the multiplier
I need a intermission so I could find me a new supplier
Bridge
I've been contemplating whether I should stick to this music
Whole time it's the only reason I ain't abusive
Boy this sh** f**ing saved me while these streets raised me
Ain't no way to phrase it man this sh**s freaking crazy
Hook
I done had my back against the wall
Trynna rope a dope buy some time and just stall
You don't know me roughtweiler I am dog
I'm tired of this sh** i swear that's on god
Verse 2
My living situation has been kinda hectic
I swear to fix this issue Ima need a medic
I ain't seen my mom in a long while
I wonder what she's been doing she ain't been on file
sh** ain't been the same since my grandpa died
Ever since you left my wings were clipped I can't fly
Only time I feel alive is when I'm on stage
It's as if my heart starts beating once the beat gets played
I feel a gap between this sh** its as if it was a gage
I can't stand these rappers on hearing em fills my rage
Ive been stressed out snapping
Back pack rapping smoking cancer sticks to calm my levels I swear this sh**s devil
Bridge
I've been contemplating whether I should stick to this music
Whole time it's the only reason I ain't abusive
Boy this sh** f**ing saved me while these streets raised me
Ain't no way to phrase it man this sh**s freaking crazy
Hook
I done had my back against the wall
Trynna rope a dope buy some time and just stall
You don't know me roughtweiler I am dog
I'm tired of this sh** i swear that's on god