I'm like the eighth soul you've stolen
Past is what I've been holding
Planning on going up
But I'm empty without you home and
Dreams and visions come hear to die
I'm barely living a life
With stressing like every night
And the power inside is right
I think I'm losing control
When you told me to move on
I honestly felt broke
You're only willing to show
Exactly what side you know
Too bad you never knew us
I wanted to call it home
Holding on what we had
There's barriers in our path
We're needing to break through
Or you won't come back
Now everbody has had it
Everybody looks plastic
Fake
They made dating you relatable
So ask them
When they're planning to break it
Making only mistakes
The pacifist in my soul
Was only willing to take you
And now you're fake too
And now this mistake glued
In the deepest part of my sub-concious
To change moods
How could I blame you?
It's always the same truth
That you wanted him
Yet I was the one to save you
I sent over a text
That always meant
And I couldn't say it directly
Cause I've been scared of perfection
If only you got the message
Cancelled it when I sent it
I've been searching for you
While we've been losing connection
Always trying to pretend it
Instead of trying to defend
All the meaning
Because you said that
I'm only here for a sec
While regretting all of these feelings
You never knew that I had
I'm sorry for all the pain
I really wanna go back
I feel the misery that
It's piercing my heart in half
For always choosing you first
When you've been choosing me last
I'm missing back in the past
Where no one cared about weight
Or shape
These fake friends you said
You would never date
But
Now you hate us
And you contemplate trust
Like every choice that I've made
Is the same place of
Needing help
Looking for someone else
Plenty fish in the sea
But all I'm feeling are shells
Washed inside my heart
Mindset's in hell
The spell is broken
And you're provoked to tell me
What
And how I can connect again
I'm searching for someone to trust
Not to take a second guess
You left
And I wish you best
You're more
When I'm feeling less
You know
That I was obsessed
With you
When you wore a dress
Sorry but I just vent
Alone inside my of my head
And saying I'm not as good as you
Probably wanting me dead
Always forgot to tell you
How much worth that I held to
So much love
It would melt you
You'd help when no one else will
Frozen heart in a stone
I promised love on my bones
With all this family supporting me
Guiding me where to go
But I can handle my own sh*t
And all of these fake pricks
With mixed emotions
Soaking up on the same script
So let me flip it
I'm driven to make a difference
This chapter won't ever finish
Until you finally listen
We're distant
But that won't change us
I feel like I played dumb
Writing 'bout a girl
That's holding my hold world up
Won't ever get it
Still wondering why you said
All these memories you'll forget
And that's actually when you left
So
I guess I'll let go
And hope you the best
Know that I'm always here
Inside our minds and soul