[VERSE 1]
Eyes red, shirt collar soaked up in tears
My first charge and these n***as done hit me with 15 years
Gang bangers, k**ers, s** offenders is all in here
I'm only 18 these closed walls got me stressing
My life already over it's marked forever on my record
I get out, job applications all gone get rejected
I close my eyes and see my mama cry when i got arrested
The court denied my only appeal thats what i f**ing
Expected
Three n***as jumped me the guards looking like it's nothing
And by the time they broke it up i had a f**ing concussion
I gotta be a criminal to make it here or i'll die
So how im gone learn my lesson when i have to fight to survive
Real talk when they turn the lights off i cry
This n***a tryna rape me i ain't take a shower in three weeks
I done lost weight n***a, i done lost the will to eat
It hurts to hear my mommas voice when she visits me
[VERSE 2]
When i sleep and dream it's nothing but black clouds and sh**
I seen this rich n***a get off and he done raped a b**h
The court system done made me a prisoner in my own head
And some times for 24 hours i just sit in my bed
Im on the edge i'd probably be better off if i was dead
The only thing that keeps me alive is to prove the world wrong
Ain't heard from the n***as i called friends in so long
I sit and wonder who on the outside is thinking bout me
And if they heard i died today would they f**ing miss me?
I feel my heart beat, besides that the sh** is empty
I swear the mins feel like hours, the hours like days, the days are like a month
And i can't even stunt i done contemplating shooting up
I see my momma through the gla** but that ain't enough
The last human touch i got was when i punched a n***a
These metal bars make you wanna bust a n***a, k** a n***a for real