Fell asleep in my warmest clothes, safe in the knowledge it was summer back home
Woke up next to a pile of rat sh**, feeling like a pile of rat sh**
With my ears ringing from weeks of shows, cities I can't remember populated by people I don't know
And I've never felt better or more full of hope, never been so competently able to cope
We went for breakfast at your parents' house
I felt inspired by everything we spoke about
Electric letters for free I send you while you sleep
Are all coming back to haunt me now
I miss the little sounds you make when you wake up
I miss the entire notion of waking up next to you
With our knotted hair tangled on the pillows that we shared
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And from here I can see my high school
And I can see my parents' house
Can see the people I grew up with
And the excuses I have buried them in now
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And I don't deserve anywhere near this much
Sleeping in basements with all five of us, waking up under mouldy blankets to scratches and coughs
Remember where the van is, find the van keys and
f** off
And from nowhere I can see myself taking insults and not playing with others well
And first impressions run deep but your memories of me
Will always be as unhealthy as they are unclean
And I say I don't mind and that everything's fine
But it's getting so hard to get my nose over the line
And I don't respect myself so why should anybody else
I don't respect myself so why should anybody else
Think that what I'm doing is right?
When it'd be just as easy to f** around and get high for the rest of my life
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And I don't deserve anywhere near this much