[verse 1: weoponized]
I use to think that you really actually care
But now your this is my worst livin nightmare
My feels so bare
I now drink my sorrows into the bottle
Have been doing that for some time now
You said you pictured a future
I seen myself pushing our son down the road on his bike
I'm nothing but dead inside
Nothing, everything been stripped
All i got left is my ba*tardy pride
I actually never thought my past would make us divide
Choosing someone else's side, over mine
How the f** am i meant to feel
When i told you that i was heaps real
For staying clean, before and after my dreams
Yeah I've had time where i wanted to relapse back on to the d**
But where would that lead me, basically where i was years ago practically
I want to put the rage inside of me down, bury it into the ground, forever not to be found
It's getting me round, feeling of emotional pain bring me down
I don't i'll ever can bring back my frown
Unless i have you back by my side now
I'll never be the same, all this great emotion is getting to my brain, driving me insane, something this cannot be contained
This will be my last song, now i'm gone
I'm lost so lost
Lost the one i love the most
I never thought this can be done
My life before us broke had just begun
But now it over and done
I'm lost so lost
Lost the one i love the most
I never thought this can be done
My life before us broke had just begun
But now it over and done
[verse 2: weoponized]
I'm not looking for you to pity me
But for you to realize that it was my past
Forever you were the last girl i really want to spend my life with
But now you know, all you said to me is just a myth
You never really said any of the truth
I was nothing but honest you, now been so quickly demolished
I've always loved you, that also including from all the bullsh** you put me through
I know you'll never find someone else like me, no one will make you feel free
Free as you'll can ever be, just wake please and start to see
I can give you the real me from both past and present
Just the other night i wrote a beautiful love letter that'll never be sent
When you found this sh** out, off to the bin that letter went
I never will know how or what your reaction will be if you read it
But like now it's just burnt in the sh**
My dearest darling, just hear my voice as here i am crying
Crying for what i had done
How i can go back into the past, so i can re-do my mistakes and make us last
My past shouldn't of jeopardized our future, you know all i ever wanted it to be with ya
I know you still want there to still be us, i'm not that mysteriously dangerous
I'm just sick of writing like this, makes me feel like i can't take this, can deal with this
I'm breaking from this and to bits, that all there is, just this
I'm lost so lost
Lost the one i love the most
I never thought this can be done
My before had just begun
But now it over and done
I'm lost so lost
Lost the one i love the most
I never thought this can be done
My before had just begun
But now it over and done
I always ways new this day was coming but you know
I gotta live, hate this pain, i can't even gotta go
Still don't know why i put myself in this zone
I'm lost so lost
Lost the one i love the most
I never thought this can be done
My before had just begun
But now it over and done
I'm lost so lost
Lost the one i love the most
I never thought this can be done
My before had just begun
But now it over and done