The day I learned you tried to k** yourself again
my stomach shriveled up
like a dead fly left out in the sun
It hurt so much to realize that I have no say
that I could never save you. But I guess it was always that way
and to think otherwise is selfishness
Like how when people die and
everyone makes it about themselves
Yeah, Pity me for all your pain
The pain I could never understand
despite my "I was the last person to talk to her" pleas
I could never shake you out of it
like so much rattling of your cage
when you just swallowed the key
And no finger of mine can reach back in your throat and take it out
It's not enough, it never was
No words can make things alright again
No choir of angels, No golden rays
No one to see you through these dark alleyways
Maybe d**h's like the ocean- and just like the ocean
we just return to the shifting tides
If I could only breathe you in
o try to keep you close
, You won't ever know
you were all I could think about
when I was f**ing
the last girl I slept with
This can't be fixed through
long talks and late nights
I need to run away
and cut off the pieces
of you that can't be
diluted through my
piss that's laced with cheap
whiskey and lack of sleep