The Aftermath
I’ll cut myself out of this conversation
I can feel the lies
They’re tearing at my skin
But I sympathize with these fake smiling faces
Because I’m learning how to forgive
I’ll tell myself it’s not real, it’s not real
But how can I face the truth when I deny that it exists?
Please drown me in my own cynicism
Free me from this nightmare
Open my eyes and wake me up
Because, I’m learning how to live
This time around I won’t fall so easily, to the ground
Fear and remorse have run their course
I could never cope with d**h
It’s impending cold
Touching everything that’s close to me
You’re too close to me
I’ve lost too many and loved to few
It makes you wonder, who would die for you?
Something horrible is about to occur
Someone I love dearly is leaving me
Now all the questions that have arose
The what-ifs; they k** me the most
I watched the snow fall from the sky
Drifting in and out, dreaming of reality
Wishing for stability, I thought the winter had left me
All my transgressions are far away, but I have been led astray
I will never be free
Maybe I will never see
I was lost that day, never to recover
The cold air filled my lungs, the clear conscience I never had returned
The dull light of a snow covered sunrise sends waves through my body
So eloquent, so eloquent
We can feel the tide closing in
Coming to wash away all of our sin
Before we know the waters are up to our chest
Brief moments of clarity will bring us rest