[Verse 1]
Fear and loathing, nightmares in my dreams
If I'm up or sleeping, that's all I see
You don't know me, far from a pot head
Feeling here, like when I first got head
Slept with some bad chicks, they the meanest
Drunk at the club, never seen us
Saw me, but you dancing with a man
All good, don't hit me up when you're a fan
Good girls think I'm bad, I don't understand
Why all the girls I want, got a man
I only say the truth, in the booth
I'm a nice guy, led astray in my youth
Hearts don't break even, I'm the proof
When I was young, couldn't bag in my coupe
Then my last ex, smashing in her Beamer
Sweetheart too, wish you could of seen her
Vegas hangover, dam I miss her
Had to fly back, just to kiss her
Story of the boy who didn't wanna make it
Overdosed on pills till my body couldn't take it
Stuck at the hospital, for like two days
They say life's a b**h, she could stay
Some say he's simple, rhyming basic sh**
Same ones clubbing, let me guess, it was lit?
Fire in my eyes, this pain ain't real?
While these rappers lie about weed for appeal
I was getting stoned, just to numb what I feel
Once that stopped working, started taking pills
I ain't proud, I was stupid, I'll keep it real
Now I'm here to show you better ways to heal
Forget the d**, shake your need for it
Once you hitting rock bottom, you won't feel that hit
[Verse 2]
Fear and loathing, nightmares in my dreams
If I'm up or sleeping, that's all I see
Living hell, life is borrowed, fact
Invest in every day, make interest back
City on my back, naw, put it on the map
Different trains of thoughts, running thru the city tracks
Do it for my mom, she shouldn't take the train
For my pops, he shouldn't feel this pain
He's stubborn, his son is just the same
Both have good intentions, different things to blame
For me, it's love, that's my Achilles Heel
White and spanish girls, smart with s** appeal
Mind is on the money, can't afford hit and misses
Trying to keep my soul, not trade it for the riches
Bills are adding up, cash is still missing
Either book these sessions or it's back to green pitching
Really I'm a hitter, not much of a good pitcher
And it's really hard to be both, go figure
Life is going down, take flight to stay higher
I try to save money, it's a cost to stay flyer
Lost bigger pieces, worried about the crumbs
I'm f**ing life numb, I'm surprised I even cum