NIHALLA It's hard for me to admit what I did so casually I regret what happened I caused a mad casuality My mind was blank, actions committed absently I hide in covers but understandably you're mad at me Father, I plead to turn back the hands of time One slip up lost a great friend of mine An angel from above she deserved the best I went from worse to worst and for that she detests Life moves so fast, one accident causing the scratch But in retrospect our relationship lost in the aftermath My thoughts are spinning fast milky way If I ever see her again don't know what to say All my friends a**ure me But I'm still cursing Your absence is the worst thing A completely disturbing burning As time wears on the sensation wears off You and I post-it a one-sided sticky tear off Nothing I do will ever earn your respect Forgiveness can't expect but I will never forget What we had and how much I loved it Rollback to when I J rolled and we hit SEBAS My mom cries As we sit among the pews Her prayer goes unreplied For a kid she hardly knew We all been through it Suicide like déjà vu Pull the trigger but there's no undo Who wants to live forever?
You're numb to it when the 9 [mm] clicks I'm feeling better medicated off guitar riffs Misfits f**ing with those kick drums and blap kits Not in the lab? Then I was chilling with the bad kids So many high schoolers want to do it big So many others wanna just fit in It's f**ing silly When you look like Macklemore & wear jeans this skinny Approval means everything really But what about the girl who wasn't sickly? Or the boy who got abused at home? “I guess it's just a pity that they'll die alone” f** that Been there, done that Asking them “where the love at?” & for some tough is the only love that they've ever known And So I act irresponsibly “you feeling fine?” [I'd rather die] But I reply Quite possibly It's comedy It's all a joke “I'm out” is the philosophy I put it to my head when my mom starts calling me ...as we sit among the pews “All rise” For a kid they hardly knew And I Walk to the casket Guess I needed some help Get in and lay beside of myself Stare at my mom As they lower me into An early grave I wish I could undo I thought I wanted this My last thought when I went to end my misery “I just hope somebody misses me.”