Watch me as I suffocate
Medication to sooth my aches
Numbs my constant fear of change
Addiction is a slow decay
Restless shakes bruised veins
God will i ever fu*king feel safe
I fell in love with my depression
The only thing that was consistent
I hated how empty I felt but at least it kept me distant
Everything i love will slowly dissipate
Everyone i know will be ripped away
What's the fu*king point it's getting harder to pretend
How do escape the relativity in this?
Nothing is beautiful
Nothing is forever
That thought alone strips me of my efforts
Maybe when i'm older I won't be so scared to die
Maybe in time death won't be so fragile in my mind
I fell in love with my depression
The only thing that was consistent
I've hated how empty I've felt but at least it's kept me distant
Watch me as I suffocate
Medication to sooth my aches
Numbs my constant fear of change
Addiction is a slow decay
Restless shakes bruised veins
God will i ever fu*king feel safe
Addiction is a slow decay
Feelings of neglect feelings of regret
How the fu*k could I ever forget
I'm addicted to despondency
It bleeds into everything