[Verse 1]
I wake up, pop another chill pill
Praying these n***as don't k** me before this deal will
I don't eat off every plate, I pay the bill still
Drove through the hood last week, n***as getting k**ed still
Just got that "why Bishop hit Steel?" feel
That starving "never had a meal chasing a meal" feel
Little fresh, playing daddy (?) and chess
Thinking three moves ahead, premeditate before the k** feel
When you up they wanna see you down
And when you down they don't give a f**
No random text and they ain't picking up
It get late and then them triggers bust
Trapped in a hole. Cook it and cut it and bag it […]
Family to feed, he really just praying them packages go
Cold outside, the strongest survive
Did some sh** that was even wrong in my eyes
[Hook]
A place where everybody sin
And an enemy could look like a friend – Newark
A place where some crooked a** cops steady running around banging, momma gotta be your pops – Newark
Trying to make something out of nothing, chasing bread
All these crabs in a bucket, they want me dead
Cane k**ed Abel, that ain't your brother
Momma deuce doing […] when nanna playing mother – Newark
[Verse 2]
Another flight leave at 10 again
Be back in a while
Another news flash, another kid gone, another Zimmerman
Speaking of that case I said "while"
k**ed a kid in the hood and left with a smile
My homie k**ed a n***a in the hood and lost trial
Ain't chilled with cuz since, he still ain't back right now
Can't forget him at all
One of the reasons I spit it this raw
I just ain't record (?)
I could be behind him and he reminding y'all of me with bars
We pray that we never get out of here
Your brother, your sister, your aunt and your momma here
Snakes, rats, gorillas, sharks, apes, some llamas here
Ironic, you trying to live, and everybody dying here
Old 'Kiss got me reminiscing
Sitting low, Swan driving, trying to hit a victim
Newark proud across the chest
It's no place like home, I think Dorothy said it best
[Hook]
[Verse 3]
Thinking about all the sh** that I've accomplished
Still feel unaccomplished
Got the Batman fans watching, told them I got them
If this don't work, it's back to robbin'
Just trying to fill the freezer, me and my accomplice
Won't starve again, I promise
Them choppers still down in the basement
Timberlands still on the pavement
Past done flashed in my brain in pain, I try to erase it
Memories that only haunt me in my dreams
I still taste my own blood, I still hear them screams
Grandma texts me she proud but I curse too much
Wanted to text her back "you church too much"
Whatever that mean, just trying to do this rap thing
She pray for me more than I do, so you know what that means
Means she probably right, sh**, I could die tonight
Slipping alone, no strap, no homie that's gone ride in sight
They say: you wanna get to Heaven, gotta go through Hell first
So this for that lil n***a that wanted to eat
But gotta make a sale first
Wasn't good with math cla** but he know how that scale work
Never went to Disney, well, he'll probably go to jail first
For shorty who got pregnant by a lame
She trying to be a mother, he out trying to get stained
Outside it gets so f**ing cold
Only could try and stay warm when it's your f**ing home
Outside it gets so f**ing cold
Only could try and stay warm when it's your f**ing home
[Hook]