When I bite the big one
Life and time will move on
That's part of the problem problem
I'd've have never let them in
Had I known they'd leave
Leave me such a mess
I don't have the tools to
Screw my courage to
Anything at all
Even if I had to
It's all I can do
To hold up the walls
I'm afraid I'll find out I'm a coward
And have wasted my time
Wasted, worried that I wasted my time
After two packs
You'd think that I'd have some answers
But the black stares back
And if and when the stars fall in line
I'll have waited so long
That I don't think i'll notice
So can I bum a light, a smoke, some time, a shoulder
A motive, a reason to try
Or prescription that makes this alright
On the inside
Well, he darkens my doorstep again
Can't he just wait
'til I finish breakfast
He's only been gone for a week
The seasons he leaves
Getting shorter and shorter between
I can't keep him at bay
And I can't make sense of my senses
When they drift away
Every time it's the same
You'd think that by now
I would know how to turn him away
And he knows that
All it takes is some twisting to turn me
From washing the dishes
To sifting Netflix
After too many days
You'd think I'd learn a lesson
But the Big Bad is back
And if and when I do fall in line
I'll have laid here so long
That my limbs will be useless
So can I get a light, a smoke, some time, a shoulder
A motive, a reason to try
Give me something that makes me feel right
On the inside