[The Experience Verse]
I can see heavens gates from this hell
Oh look theres my grandfather damn he looking swell
Grandma says hello
Im sorry but I really have to go
No time for chit chat
My friends be talking money and you know I gotta get that
I know you said never to get involved
But look at all this debt that just stacks on grandma's chest dad
And she already stressed that
You and her oldest had to go
Now she's all alone, wait a drug addict at home
Trying to provide for me and my sis on her own
Looking like a mountain with those boulders on her shoulders
And the nights already colder, cause the lights cut in October
But she fights just like a soldier
To keep the food up on the table and the clothes up on my back
How she got us christmas presents when we never asked
Gah Damn
And it is evident that she is heaven sent
Won't rest till her residence
Is that just like the presidents and her pockets stuffed with Benjamin's
And dad I know these times feel like Fort Knox
And we locked in, Sometimes I wonder how the hell we even got in
But no time to waste you know there is a time and place
And right now it is 9 past 8 and I am late
For cla**es, as you whips up all the tears off my gla**es
And looks me in the eyes, tells me I'm the prize
Tells me I'm the key, Thats gonna set us free
Shut the car door find my desk in back of the cla** and then I fade away
To a better place where we never face
Bill collectors, hunger, or any type of poverty
I swear to god this had got to be more than a
(fantasy)
Snap back to reality
Look down at my desk, nothing but homework and a journal full of stress
A journal full of stories, a journal full of rhymes
That talks about those times, Where help was hard to find, and we struggled for those dimes
Just to buy some food so we can feed our minds
God we needa' sign
God we need some hope
Cause I just saw my grandma's grocery list and it said some rope
No....No
Grandma not again we've been through this it is not the end
You have me and dad see
Wait where dad be?
As I look for him all I found was a grocery list and it said some dope
No...No
Not again Dad we've been through this d** are not your friend
Its the devil in disguise but when I looked up in his eyes
Nothing was alive, all I felt was drive
To smoke whats in his pipe, To fade away from life
God this isn't right, God just shed some light
Through these clouds of grey that follow me everyday
I sit in my cla** and then I fade away
To a better place where we never face
Suicide, d**, or pressure plates
That put wait up on our backs
And our dinner plates are always stacked
And grandma smiles all the time
Back to reality its just a fantasy
Look down at my desk how can it be?
As light breaks through the cracks of the grey clouds
On a journal my grandma got me when I was 8 wow
When I told her I wanted to be like 8 mile
I break down rush to the restroom to put water on my face
Blow
Im outsie' , Im about to tell these people something they don't know about me