(I dunno what I was thinking
Leaving my child behind
Now I suffer the curse and now I am blind
With all this anger, guilt, and sadness
coming to haunt me forever
I can't wait for the cliff at the end of the river)
Is this revenge I am seeking?
Or seeking someone to avenge me?
Stuck in my own paradox
I want to set myself free
Maybe I should chase and find before they try to stop it
It won't be long before I'll become a puppet
It's been so long
Since last I have seen my son lost to this monster
To the man behind the slaughter
Since you've been gone
I've been singing this stupid song so I could ponder
The sanity of your mother
I wish I lived in the present
With the gift of my past mistakes
But the future keeps luring with a pack of snakes
Your sweet little eyes
Your little smile is all I remember
Those fuzzy memories mess with my temper
Justification is k**ing me
But k**ing isn't justified
What happened to my son I'm terrified
It lingers in my mind and the thought keeps on getting bigger
I'm sorry my sweet baby
I wish I'd been there
It's been so long
Since last I have seen my son lost to this monster
To the man behind the slaughter
Since you've been gone
I've been singing this stupid song so I could ponder
The sanity of your mother