Father forgive me man I'm slowly picking up the pieces
So many excuses given to me I can't believe em
I'm stacking cd's of Davids old music collection
I heard my grandma's gonna leave, but my time is invested
My system is taking a toll of lounging at the crib
Gotta get these demons out before they come back in
My own blood got beef with each other
Stuck between the lines, ima duck and ima cover
Project ain't ever coming man but I tell myself that Ima do it
Let my tears touch the paper, I'm ashamed to use em
To my own advantage because I'm not rapper material
Yet I overcame all my problems, what a miracle
Rather than speak what was on my head at the time
Ran quick as I could to put my feelings into rhymes
As of right now I couldn't thank this music enough
Saved my life multiple times, yeah, no fist to cuffs
Man I promise you, I was never enough
Not even to my family or any girl that I loved
Society denied me as a human right on the spot
I handled it properly, shine the light and I'm hot
And I adjust my headphones while I watch the ceiling fan spin
Feud of my family interrupted the story telling
Of Nas in 89, now I'm stuck in 2016
Protect what I'm seeing like my name Kareem
Back in 1997 I was a mere belief
Messing with my nerves I couldn't stand what I would eat
Barely breathing after my brother told me the problems he
Had at that point, now I catch and release
All the grudges I hold up on the side of my waist
Make the paper escalate and that will be your great escape
I don't know if thats true, I been drowning in the pain
Pictures of my life time is why I'm still sane
Stay up all hours of the night, working or dreaming
Living how I'm living might just be the only reason
I'll die before I'm 25, waiting to be idolized
Probably won't ever be sh** in my idols eyes
Working on myself and all my plans for the future
Huh, probably in the whip bumping Future
Restless until I get everything that I deserve
I won't stop till my name is known and voice is truly heard