[Verse 1]
My memories are so vivid
I just want to dive in and soak in 'em
I want to go back desperately
Now reminiscing really turned into my opium
I switched it up
Shot up on nostalgia
And I quit them d**
Cause when I'm getting up I'm getting up
But the next morning I'm getting up in a funk
I've been bad for eighteen years
Karma got me f**ed, f**
I'm tired of the pain
These f**ed up thoughts got me thinking I'm insane
You don't know my story homie
Stay inside your lane
Cause what's happening is something only destiny explains
[Verse 2]
This the year that my life changed
No I don't have cancer
But damn my life changed
Now I'm right here looking into my brain
Trying to figure out if it's the illness of if I changed
And I'm becoming such a loner, man I feel so isolated
Don't see eye to eye with anyone I've ever known
I really felt like I could take some happiness and microwave it
Now instead I'll plant a seed and wait until it's grown
Yeah, I'm fine being depressed and fine being obsessed with music
It gets me through this
Keep your friends close but don't be foolish
Your left man's Brutus, your right man's Judas
I'm really done with the bullsh**
I don't wanna be a cool kid
My makeshift studio's the bullpen
When I'm pitching perfect games, I'll be living good, b**h!
[Verse 3]
You want that sheltered life
Smoking weed at Pepperdine
I want to hit the city, dirty subways bumping Nevermind
Like all the girls before you I knew you were never mine
Jacks want their Rose and I'm still searching for my Clementine
Yeah, but either way they still Kate right?
I should just worry 'bout myself and get my cake right? Right
I miss the crazy hazy late nights
But the more I dwell on them that seems like a fake life
I said it seems like a fake life. .
But I still want that back
[Bridge]
(Whoa-oh) I ain't feelin' good [x 2]
(Whoa-oh)I ain't feelin'
(Whoa-oh)I ain't feelin' good
WHOA-OH
[Hook]
(Whoa-oh) I ain't feelin' good [x 2]
(Whoa-oh) I ain't feelin' [x 3]
(Whoa-oh) I ain't feelin' good [x 3]
No, no