[Intro]
Ma, this is for you
This is for you
You see that, it's for you
[Verse 1]
Last night I talked to you, but I heard nothing back
This is nothing like the past, wish that I was less sad
Last time I talked to you, you said you had my back
And we would smile, we would laugh
I have a life to live, and I cherish it too
Cause lord knows if you walk this earth again it's exactly what you do
You'll never leave my side, even though you're not here
I can still feel your touch, I could feel you near
Just know I'm on the move to make you proud
I made a promise that I'll smile, like no tomorrow
[Hook]
I'll remember those years
I'll cherish those days
And if life is heavy
Just lift all that weight from me
The tears that you've cried
They'll fall out my eyes
And even if you're not around
I'mma hold it down for the rest of my life
[Verse 2]
My hero was pa**ed on
If you could try, you could probably fit my tears in a bathtub
The fact that it's over - I hate hearing that word
They bashed on you your whole life - those things you never deserved
You weren't worried about me
You told me that before you pa**ed
Even if I got critics steady nagging me, I'll laugh
Cause you never let sh** get to you, I wish I was like you
You told me every single hater has a miserable life
Mom, I was never around, and I felt like that mattered
Been the worst son lately, I got my a** backwards
Not looking for self pity; I just want to make you proud
And even if you suffer crazy, I just hope you're looking down
I thought d**h wasn't as certain
I can't believe I woke up and lost a person that used to cut my hair when I was 8
The fact that it's too late
The fact that you had stitches from these surgeries
It hurt me and had me in constant breaks
I hate it. Still, you smiled in pain
Chemo k**ed off your spirits, but happy thoughts met your brain
I would wait til' these days where they were sayin' it would be my mama's day
You were almost close to pa**ing away
I throw this cash all away
I'd surrender it all
Ain't no other woman mean more to me than my mom
Yeah you did it, you did it
I'm sorry I sound pitiful
Sorry if I never hung out, when I ain't had sh** to do
I'd focus on girls, mama, I'd focus on money
But it's funny how these things got easily taken from me
But you're always here, mama
Cancer or not, we gon' meet again soon
As these hands on the clock, go by
I just wait until the day god has planned for me
You'll grab my hand. hug me tight and stare back at me
Dance with me, laugh with me, happily
Because in heaven, ma, you're cancer-free, R.I.P
[Hook]
I'll remember those years
I'll cherish those days
And if life is heavy
Just lift all that weight from me
The tears that you've cried
They'll fall out my eyes
And even if you're not around
I'mma hold it down for the rest of my life
[Hook v2]
When I close my eyes I wake up to the morning
Wake up to another morning
Wake up to the morning, and you're with me
When I close my eyes I wake up to the morning
Wake up to another morning and I'm gon' smile for the rest of my life