(Hook X2)
I'm surrounded by the rain drops rollin out my eyes
This crazy life of mine is such a roller coaster ride
I'm hardly ever sober so forgive me if I'm high
I'm one with the clouds in the middle of the sky
(Verse 1)
My life is so pathetic with decisions I've regretted
I'm hardly ever sober coz the d** help me forget it
I don't know which way I'm headed, complications from my past
My child's all I have and it feels it's fading fast
I don't want to see em sad so mostly I've been hopeless
The doctor don't help me, all he does is up the dosage
From time to time I notice every second I lose focus
She sweared to god she loved me but I never smelled the roses
Baby if it's over then it's over, let's end it
It's hard to be authentic when your hearts no longer in it
I know I'm so persistent and pushing you to the limit
Baby girl admit it, it's my fault your acting timid
I'm just a gimmick and you can tell by my condition
I should have put you first but instead it's my addiction
I'm forever unforgiven and I'm barely livin'
Forgive me for my sins in these sentences I'm sendin'
I'm starting to sense an ending so I gotta keep my guard up
Partially confused, I'm suffering from hard luck
I feel that if I loose I may never see the sun rise
I die every day and I don't get to see my child's eyes
It's crazy ain't it how the clouds cleared and it's still raining
Gotta face my fears before I f** around and fall
Women that I've dated, I'm missing em here lately
Reminiscing about that lady that kissed me and made me crazy
I want her (I want her) but I'm with you (I'm with you)
I want her and to tell the truth I'm falling down
When ain't no one around me rain drops all around me
In alcohol I'm drowning, days of depression, rage, and plenty stress
Since I was an adolescent I been broken down in health
Often I get selfish putting the pills first
Got a feeling that baby might not be mine and it still hurts
I cry late at night when I'm all alone
You can see the light shining but nobody's home
Where did I go wrong, I won't ever know
So I'm riding all alone by myself screaming let me go
If you would have stayed by my side maybe things wouldn't be this way
Every night she see my tail lights in the window pane
I'm always on the road, I get you high and keep you low
We might have made it but we'll never know
We gave up on our love and all the romance
I could have lit the candle, should've held your hand
I would've held you down but you broke me off
Now you don't want me around and I'm forever scared
(Hook X2)
I'm surrounded by the rain drops rollin out my eyes
This crazy life of mine is such a roller coaster ride
I'm hardly ever sober so forgive me if I'm high
I'm one with the clouds in the middle of the sky