[Verse 1]
He said he'd never do it again
That was about as realistic as me
Quitting on the pad and the pen
I always focus on the good and not the bad in these men
And now the Feds have gotta go and tell my mother I'm dead
I think my soul left my body tenth kick to the head
I blacked out on the fifth and the carpet went red
I still remember all the dumb sh** I said
And the excuses that I used to try
And make to all my family and friends
Man the first time he hit me I should of left
But it was only once I told myself plus I got him vex
And plus I felt all his regret when he begged and he wept
And told me baby since I did this to you I've barely slept
Tryna fix a man that's trying to break me
Never thought that love would k** me
But it took my life like someone who hates me
He clocks that I ain't moving so he panics and shakes me
I'm on my way to God there ain't a thing that can wake me
[Chorus]
My head told me to leave but I never left and now I am dead
My heart told me to stay now I'm in my grave and rotting away
I was dancing with the devil now I'm singing with the angels
[Verse 2]
Always blaming me naming me and shaming me
Should of known he was the devil the first day he f**ing came to me
It's insane to me he wasn't who he claimed to be
And basically this mother f**er murdered me quite shamelessly
I was too young to die what happened to my pride
I swear I couldn't even look the mother f**er in his eyes without wondering what made him such a screw up
Had me drinking for release until I couldn't stand and threw up
I was talented some say I would of blew up
When my head split the blood splatter
f**ed my f**ing shoes up
Body all bruised up looking like a loser
And the teeth in my gums couldn't get any looser
I've been lying here for hours now
Watching as this coward drowns
In his f**ing tears because he realised he's a sour clown
I can picture all my loved ones crying
I've been unhappy for a long time guess I was already dying
[Chorus]
My head told me to leave but I never left and now I am dead
My heart told me to stay now I'm in my grave and rotting away
I was dancing with the devil now I'm singing with the angels
[Outro plays to fade]