[Verse 1]
Good morning world this could really be a new day
Couldn't sleep the nights didn't wake up feeling okay
You can have it all but can I have the truth ?
Please keep my mind off the sh** they want me to do
Keep on running but my thoughts stand still
Found stones in all the shoes I was meant to fill
I said it's just for safety now I fire at will
I'm drowning above water, in a land that k**s
I give in I give up its just too much
My thoughts are running but my feet are not
I'm so hungry but I can not eat up
Head and body lost connection in the cobra clutch
Look, life is not an avenue, it's a gooddamn highway
It's not a deck of cards, it's apple, arrow and a blind aim
Don't give a f** about your rules, today its my game
And if I can choose, God let me die on a bright day
Having doubts that in my age noone's meant to feel
How far have we come when I start rhymin' and stealin'
Im not doing alright but I'm doing it still
Don't even know for sure what keeps the balance on my heels
[Hook]
NOW I'M RUNNING OUT OF NIGHTS
WON'T SPEND THEM LYING DOWN IN A RIOT MIND
NOT ONE MOMENT DEFEAT IS JUSTIFIED
I REALLY NEED A WIN THIS TIME
[Verse 2]
Crashed, couldn't beat your fathers in the race
Don't dry those tears I smash even harder when it rains
I'll get there all I need's a splash of water to the face
Independent earth: she makes it rain down on herself
Allow me to fill vast space with empty words
This is not broken, let's just call it slightly disturbed
Let me make enough to buy a plane and fly with the lotus!
If God wrote you the bible, let me write you a thesaurus
An addict to my thoughts or just an antisocial freak
Try to find yourself when your head screams
“Who the f** is me”
Keep pushing, till i can't tell what the difference is
Between the guy I am and the guy that I'm aspiring
So many prophets, s**, d**, seen internet platforms sink
Start proving your heart can make mine stop for me
See if you find some time to give a f** about my stories now
See if I find it right to fill up this mic with all I worry about
This is all on you now: press pause or keep going
Some come for the sound, some come for the story
Your hands can give me life, I just hope they can not end me
Some visit twice, some decide to end it early
I never planned to be a k**er, do I do this right?
Wonder who'd be dead if Mac Miller hadn't saved my life
Im just a coward f**ing scared to fly
Turned my brain into a map: sit back, enjoy the ride
[Hook]
NOW I'M RUNNING OUT OF NIGHTS
WON'T SPEND THEM LYING DOWN IN A RIOT MIND
NOT A MOMENT DEFEAT WAS JUSTIFIED
I REALLY NEED A WIN THIS TIME
[Outro 2x]
Told myself I won't stop till they play my songs on repeat
Till the day they get it and play them till they fall asleep
This is something permanent I got to get used to
I think I might just need some help to do so