Inside the pain, I count how many breaths I have left Inside the pain, I count how many heartbeats I have left Inside the pain, I feel the lack of impulse in my flesh Inside the pain, I have no strength to breathe in the air Inside the pain, no more caressing spiked memories I miss you Or maybe I don't I know you would like me to Insides crumbled with the vice of hopeless thoughts Look at what you've done don't turn away from my corpse My existence smashed against the wall See how fast it starts to decompose Why me? Insides crumbled with the vice of hopeless thoughts Look at what you've done don't turn away from my corpse
My existence smashed against the wall Be transparent something I can easily ignore When unrelenting voices Try to exert control Sit by the river And watch the bodies flow In prayer Fold your hands In prayer Bowels burn In prayer All my faith In prayer Multiple collecting of self Putting pieces together Something finished To be a human as expected Uniform, a closed constellation Fixed pattern of hemoglobin Insides crumbled with the vice of hopeless thoughts Look at what you've done don't turn away from my corpse My existence smashed against the wall See how fast it starts to decompose