[verse 1]
See I don't understand where it ends for me
Whats the difference between a fan and a friend in me?
And its hard to take a stand when I'm friendly
They take advantage, hard to manage this sensibly
See there's Ess and there's Sarah; student and a rapper
I'm blessed to be here but I moved cuz I have to
Wear a lot of clothes and, I don't show skin much
Try to draw the lines by myself with this thin brush
Try to redesign what I mask what I show yah
Try to stay in line but I clash with this culture
[Chorus]
Are you Sarah? are you Essence are you two in the same?
Who is here on this record? who is who in this game?
It's like I can't have both and they making me choose
It's like I can't just go and do the things that I do
And what makes it even scarier is the bigger I get
The bigger I sweat this sh** and I'm beginning to bet that I'm
Going crazy just tryin' to find who is Sarah who is Essence are we two of a kind?
Its like...
[Verse 2]
Who cares 'bout what I am if im crooked or straight?
sh**, I'm looking in the books 'fore I look at your face
Its open mic, I'm the type who's just looking to take
All your pride when I rhyme, I'm not looking to date
This ain't a place for me to lie a little and go and get laid
Thats why I'm taking out my anger and im flowing with rage
Its where my demons uncaged, can leave a predator dead
Its where I go to overthrow my competitive edge
Its where stress is released and the essence in me
Is expressed and I'll best you with the flesh of this beast
Instead it's me, at the core on the floor at the summit that is me
When there's war dont ignore it confront it
When I'm blunted and I freestyle better than you man studs
You better listen to what I tell you put your mother f**ing hands up
Get it or forget it you can hate it or not
It doesn't matter who I am just that im taking your spot
Its like...
[Chorus 2]
Going crazy just trying to find
Who is sarah who is essence are we two of a kind?
Its like...
Going crazy just trying to find
Who is sarah who is essence are we two of a kind?
Its like...
[verse 3]
And if you see me at a rap night I wouldn't go to approach me
Dont think for a second that you really even know me
I'm a daughter, I'm a girl friend worker and a sister
Student, word murderer its absurd let me list yah
I'm in love and I'm happy and I write when I can
But I find it hard just to fill the expectations of "friends"
And I'm stressed and confused but I'll figure it out
I'm a mess when I lose so don"t trigger my doubt
A type with masked feelings eternalized in deep
But I find only beats that where burning out of me so
Essence sorta came as a form of an outfit
But essence sorta changed beyond the form of an outlit
Even when the doubt hit
Found writing with the stout hid
She can hardly contain
She reigns even when the drought hits
Flames that she rises. amazingly surprises
That the fact that this side of me has strangely survived its..
[Chorus 3]
Going crazy just trying to find
Who is sarah who is essence are we two of a kind?
Its like...
Going crazy just trying to find
Who is sarah who is essence are we two of a kind?
Its like...