[Verse 1: FL]
Earth shattering break up
Now every single morning that I wake up
I got 5 years of memories can't replace em
Really i don't want to anyway can't erase em
From it all I gained a daughter, so god thank you
I help allot, but still I left her mom with a plateful
I done sacrificed it all but these demons though
Mind bouncing off the wall, trying to keep control
Can't even sit and write no bars for a release and show
I'm not broken
I must be picking up these pieces slow
You can see it, I try to hide it but still it shows
You can feel it behind the mask, I'm concealing woes
Depression is a luxury I can't afford
The lord put allot of great in me I can't ignore
The path has been destructive to say the least
I caused havoc and corruption to slay the streets
Working over beats
Instead of working out our beefs
Ended worse than I could think
Yet I carry on
Got me feeling like I'm Barry Bonds
Lost it all without no care to repair it, nah I just let it stall
I just let you down
Got you trying to figure out what the f** I'm doing
I'm just getting 'round
Spreading my wings, hoping to fly
Who knew in the process, we would deny
Each other of our dreams, our little piece of the pie
Which was a little bit of nothing
But we wanted different substance
I just wanted to be loved, you wanted loving
And I defied everything, like f** it
In this race for commas, i lost the war
Looking for a change, but no its not in store
Plus me and little mama don't rock no more
Guess you could say, i'm a drama provocateur well...
Hmm, i guess that's a little dark
Yeah, i said her job was sh**, that's a little harsh
My temper so hot, just need a little spark
To blow some sh** out
I don't wanna flip out
But she's the same way, she ain't unknown to this route
It's just that she's finished, she ain't on with this now
And I just want to get in my zone, and sit down
With a zone of this loud, some headphones, a milk stout
And chill
Pull out this notepad, and ill out
For real
That's how I feel now
That's how I feel now
For real