The lies I could tell,
when I was growing up
light-bright, near-white,
high-yellowed, red-boned
in a black place,
were just white lies.
I could easily tell the white folks
that we lived uptown,
not in that pink and green
shanty-fied shotgun section
along the tracks. I could act
like my homemade dresses
came straight out the window
of Maison Blanche. I could even
keep quiet, quiet as kept,
like the time a white girl said
(squeezing my hand), Now
we have three of us in this cla**.
But I paid for it every time
Mama found out.
She laid her hands on me,
then she washed out my mouth
with Ivory soap. This
is to purify, she said,
and cleanse your lying tongue
Believing her, I swallowed suds
thinking they'd work
from the inside out.