Ye ye, Tabs One up in this motherf**er, Bad Karma, Dead Rabbits, sh** is crazy you know what I'm saying I never do sh** like this, but uh the heart wants what it wants you know, tells me to write I write, know what I'm saying so, see what I can do over this sh**, walk with me
Plenty ask why, not too many ask why not
Cuz a national past time standing in line is live stock
These snakes side wind you bound to wind up in that pine box
Cuz your troubled waters are high tide, and your minds eye is your blind spot
I'm a cyclops in a land of the blind so that makes me king
But I don't need a Sierra Leone blood diamond, or a chain that blings
Cuz I ride on and fly through the storm with paper wings
It's amazing cuz the pain it brings, really ain't a thing
It makes me think I'm losing control
In through the nose out through the mouth breathing
Barely kept alive trying to exercise these foul demons
Who been proud beating my inner child with them sounds shrieking
But I found found freedom on Mt.Eden screaming out that I'm now leaving
And that begins the transformation
Strolling through disasters cuz I know the answers waiting
It f**s with me cuz I felt emancipation
And they cut the legs out from under me like cancer patients, with amputations
This man is raging but forget that stump
I fell in a d**h trap but now it's time to get back up
I reject that cuff that tries to shackle me to self doubt
It tried to hold me in a cell but I broke the hell out
Like a bat outta hell, so I could get a head start
But this ain't much better, front and center in a d**h march
Now I can slowly search, throughout this holy verse
But it's taking so long to find where I belong on this lonely earth
So I wrote a verse about this rare fact
I lose my inhibitions while spitting to a kick snare hat and
For every single this there's that
When you staring in your piss know that it's there spat
Now I'm back in this black hole, I know that my souls trapped
Smoking a packed bowl trying to find where my homes at
I don't know where to go so I follow my own tracks
There's holes in the map so I can't find the road back
I'm still young but I'm ready for retirement
Tired of these desires that now became requirements
Lost in the dark trying to find enlightenment
Cuz only fire lives and lies exist in my environment
I lost sight of it, but I can see clearly now
You ain't gotta feel me, you just gotta hear me out
I nearly found the purpose I was searching for
The herd that calls got me internally on the verge of war
Furthermore it tortures me relentlessly
So often I find myself walking with the enemy
It rose from my coffin, I'm haunted by the memories
To the point of everything I wanted is necessity
Tormented mentally and I can't stop distressing
Cuz all's I need answers, but all's I got are questions
I exist in a paragon beyond your comprehension
Like staring in the stream of life and seeing God's reflection
Convalescent but the pain is evolved
Teaching conscious lessons before it dissolves my resolve
If I'm gonna solve the problems that I got in my dome
I need some Hip-Hop, good pot and two shots of Patron
And that should get me to where I'm going faster
But my expectancy for destiny is moving slower than cold mola**es
Trying to focus through broken gla**es
Cuz my soul just hopped out of an open casket and wrote a cla**ic
I rose from ashes like a mythological phoenix
I mix psychological and philosophical with impossible genius
This is not for the squeamish, what I'm feeding is a bitter pill
This sh** is ill, I have to chuckle cuz I'm having trouble sitting still
Spinning tails chasing my tail in a tail spin
Word to Thirstin Howl, I've been screwed but it was nailed in
A road I enrail, impaled through my pale skin
My bread of life was snail, I'm emaciated, frail and railed in
I mailed in my resignation, my destination is stay lost
This job has no benefits, and I never get a day off
All that's good is gone, I coulda sworn I was on the same course but I'm way off
Now I'm on my way to find the main source
But I've come to find such stress, it's undefined what's next
My troubled mind thinks in double time dub step
Tell the boys and girls that we're only down to one breath
The destroyer of worlds, I have now become d**h
k**ing everything, never thinking of pain and sorrow
Learn from past mistakes and use today to change tomorrow
These days are borrowed, gotta pay 'em back with interest
I'm not mad you made it that, I just hate the fact you insist
I've been pissed, screaming until my lungs hurting
I'ma make an imprint on the sun before I'm done working
So many of these steps are uncertain
And there's only so much you can expect from one person
I've begun searching, the cavernous depths
I've traveled thousands of steps
Heart beating out of my chest
Manic depressed to salvage the rest, I let it go
And live my tomorrow as today, cuz hey, you never know
You know?