[Verse 1]
Sometimes I feel like Hop like I'm mad at the world with no proper way to vent
And im pissed
Sometimes I sit and I think to myself
Why the f** am i living
Should i go should i stay
f** it I'm tired of all this pain
But something starts to change when i load the gun to blow out my brains
I imagine my brain being sprayed on the walls
But then i picture my mom walking down the halls
Hearing the gun go off and trying to figure out why
The f** i finally decided to end it all
And her crying worse than a kid in the holocaust
I imagine that the reason I haven't ended it all
And I look around n***as is dead everywhere
Typhoons in the Philippines
And every where else humans live with disease
I'm worth more dead than alive
I could donate my motherf**ing eyes no lie
Kidneys but no beans
Plus i don't even wanna be buried so me dying is pretty cheap
Got insurance so my momma will get paid
Never got laid so innocent I'll stay
School's f**ed up and everybody knows that they dont me
I'm a ticking time-bomb waiting to get my blast off
I wanna hold the barrel of a gun right to my nose and pull the trigger
But I'll get scared block it with my hand and end up living with a few less fingers a scar on my head and so brain-dead I won't make bread
Pull the plug, plug the plug I'm tired of breathing it hurts
But I'll do it to spite god cause frankly that n***a thinks I'm kinda odd
I've been discouraged by rap just by looking at the future
And Hop Is Back how f**ed up was that
That sh** made me never wanna even pick up the f**ing act
Made me wanna just leave my pen and pad
But I can't and nobody even knows my f**ing name (not even the teachers)
b**hes not even with me but drive me insane
Ku Klux Im trying to get some fame
But my songs are garbage
Like Tyler I want to voice to change
Ashamed inane inhumane but I'm not Randy Savage
Dez is off getting signed
Zajic dropped a tape
Is it too late?
I'm a f**ing Senior
Just trying to be meaner than that f**ed up n***a looking like Stinkmeaner
Ugh
Sad aprt is nobody even realized i was depressed
In their minds i let my grades slip
But in reality I need a morphine drip
Just to smile