A steak or a spike to face in this strife
As blatant as fights, your loss has me vacant in fright
I hope you didn't suffer brother, hope you raced to the light
Sometimes i think back to sobriety for traces of Mike
I thought wrong, nobody could ever say it was right
Heard “he didn't make it”, labeled it a baseless insight
Now I've accepted it, but f** if i don't hate that it's like
A truck rolling onto my body and staying for life
When thinking of the plane you're on, i think in basis of height
You being greeted at the gates that shine so gracious and bright
Thinking how your mother thought she was just saying goodnight
You never woke up, but maybe i can face it tonight
You were on a different level of supplying beings
With the finer things, never stopped to deny the fiends
Your entire reason for wanting to live the life of kings
Was a righteous dream, putting you within' the price of rings
And I accept that. sh** man, if you would've said that
I would've done the opposite of get mad
It's like my ego asked to lend jabs, tapping out the tenth match
When I said I just want my friend back, I meant that
Coming dead last running from my past now
I been running pens back. Sum it up and pa** out
When that shutter lens cracks, some of us'll back down
But you were the bigger picture so I'm on my tact now
And I say
My emotions have been opened as a result of
You overdosing' and since then I haven't closed em
My emotions have been opened as a result of
You overdosing' and since then I haven't closed em
Your life or a buzz, which one matters more?
Expecting to move back and forth on a stagnant horse
The same horse that we were kicking dead forever
Read your letters as if I was standing on a balance board
Telling me that you were getting much madder at the lord
Something tells me this was actually the wrath you asked him for
But it's just a guess. Or maybe it's how I crush the stress
Coming from the fact that my idol relapsed to f**ing d**h
You were right when you said it brother, I was depressed
The type of sadness that only hard d** effect
Now I'm digging in my conscience till' there's nothing left
Looking for a home in it cause lately it's been unaddressed
Thinking back to when you were proof that I had a fan
Nights spent in a bliss of opiates and ativan
Sacrificed to the span of my attention
My retention made it hard to remember if I had had a plan
And I say
My emotions have been opened as a result of
You overdosing' and since then I haven't closed em
My emotions have been opened as a result of
You overdosing' and since then I haven't closed em