Hey Debbie how you been it's me Mary Jane You know your only daughter the one you left in pain The one you left over the h**n and c**aine And it's been really hard for me to come see you again And I don't even know if I'm hurt or if I'm mad Oh and by the way have you seen or heard from dad I think he's doing good he's living with his new wife I heard she keeps him clean and I guess she treats him right And I know how Pop-pop died really must have hurt you Cancer took the only father both of us ever knew And it's been really hard on Grandma We don't speak any longer She disowned me too told me I was just like my mother And I know that being a teenage mom wasn't that appealing But I can still remember the sun you painted on my ceiling Now I'm an artist too except I do it for the healing To take away this heartache and this misery I'm feeling And I've grown tired of being alone Lord I know starry eyes close And momma why won't you ever come home Lord I know starry eyes close They say that you and I we share the same traits The same pretty eyes they say they see you in my face Same Sybil moods same wicked ways Same addictions except you took it to the vein I was always afraid of you the track marks on your arms And you were always pa**ing out and taking me to bars Or you left me home alone or you left me in the car Now I'm all alone and you left me with these scars My sleep is filled with nightmares about the life you chose
Were you alone in that apartment did you really overdose I wonder could I have stopped it did you even leave a note I didn't even know you lived a mile from my home That afternoon I heard you died I thought it was a joke I didn't know that you were sick or that you had had a stroke I would have went to see you at least we could have spoke Why'd you have to die so young you were just 33 years old And I've grown tired of being alone Lord I know starry eyes close And momma why won't you ever come home Lord I know starry eyes close Well here I am momma standing at your grave I lay my head down on the marble just to ease the pain I used to come here all the time and pray that you were saved Get on my knees close my eyes and ask the Lord for strength And I understand cause I got my own set of sins But it makes me sad to think how WEAK You really must have been You had a choice between your only child and h**n And it was h**n that won the battle in the end And not a day goes by I don't think about what could have been But in the end I'm at your grave fighting tears again I miss you bad as f** my throat keeps tightening up Do you even remember I have a birthday coming up ? Until the day I die Not a day goes by that you don't walk with me There's so many things I want to say But I guess it's just too late Momma can you hear me? And I'm so tired of being tired of being alone Why won't you ever come home