Im hanging on a threat
So much in me feels sick but I only want
To confront
Whats meant for me with a hint of dignity
Dreadful to see
A life lived as a slave for the industry
Smothered fantasies
Gone down the drain along with the poison running through the vein
Ive felt the temptation
Pleasure gained by addiction
But I wont trade my pride for feeling good
Ill suffer just as much as I need to
(Chorus)
Im not the one whos waiting for you
I wont give in, I belong to no one
I am not the one with a guilty conscience
But is it wrong to belong to no one
I learned the hard way
To appreciate myself too much to love
Unconditionally
But so much control has left a hole in me
Suspicions wear me down
I will never be completely free
Im a servant
Of my obsession to question everything
Ive felt the temptation
Happiness gained by illusions
But I wont deceive my mind with substitutes
Ill rather grow as much as I need to
(Chorus)
In the midst of chaos
On these decadent streets
I stand at the crossroads
Should I pretend or surrender?