[Verse 1: illbert]
Are you watchin' this? My fallen stream of consciousness
My life's a f**ing constant mess, can't cure it with this rotten s**
Litter the floor with condom wraps filled with thoughts of a long-gone ex
I wonder how I've gotten this far without any goddamn rest
So ponder this, my life's gotten quite ponderous
Don't even smoke much now cause I've got so much tolerance
It's ominous, I can't imagine things will change
You're getting a clear shot at my soul in its f**ing darkest stage
So take it, cause I doubt I can make it
Spirit's been crushed a million times, now it's your turn to break it
I can't fake it anymore, living's become a heavy chore
Some people say that life's a b**h but I say an expensive who*e (that I can't afford)
What will you condemn me for? Just take your f**ing pick
I've forgotten all I know except that my mind's f**ing sick
So s** a dick, all you f**ing pricks
Who tell me that the way I feel is just because I'm such a wimp
Oh wait, I am just a little b**h
[Hook: illbert]
I'm feeling low
All that you need to know
Is that no matter what you think this sh** is surely not for show
So when you go
Please don't lock the door
When you return you'll find me unable to leave the floor
[Verse 2: illbert]
I'd rather fill the shoes of just about anyone else
Cause I'm angry at the world, but I'm madder at myself
My thoughts eat me alive and burn my skin off with acid
Only suitable response is to remain calm and placid
I'm made of plastic, don't know how I've lasted
Any question that you have I promise I've already asked it
Take me to my casket, my stamina is blasted
Since I've learned to fabricate happiness with some practice
I'm not quite past it, I often relapse
Think into thoughts so dark I want to blow off my own kneecaps
If you can't see that I'm in need of rehab
Not for d**, I just don't know where to find peace at
Just like Meshach, Shadrach, Abednego
I'm burning in a furnace I'm about to feel my head explode
I can't let it go, so please just send me home
Don't tell my parents, they love me, I don't want them to know