Intro:
I know (x2)
Verse 1:
Why does everything I own seem broken
From ripped paint on tables
To my mind, physically disabled
Imagine an old couple in their 50s
Purchasing their first place
Rat race, rhythm, last days
Written
The younger ones seemingly
In a daze, a reflection of the isolation
But thats my family, or thats just me
Wake up 5 45 on the bus by 6 15
I got no faith in my own dreams
I got no faith in what I sing
And thats the worst thing to say
Because if they hear you write your self off
Then you provide no hope
So thats intangible, I wasn't built to be a hero
Insubstantial
She was the first one I reached out to
She was the umpteenth I lost
And if each ever read my blogs
They would see that im a goner
I used to say my years were numbered
And I guess I still stand by it
Will 24 be the last birthday I ever see
Huh
You could catch me out on the streets
But please dont start anything, because im carrying
Pain, anger and frustration, the only trinity i maintain
The only memory I substain, I shoulda never had s** with her
Because I dont even remember her name, and thats when it all changed
Thats when it all changed
Chorus:
Are you ashamed of me (x 4)
(tranquille)
Listen man, im just confused
Should I keep my composure
Balance it with the agression
Thats a tragedy, a case of crisis of identity
The lace that flutters in the wind is attached to my nike
Or my dress shoes
I rock the black hoody, blue denim
Blues
The colour of royalty
Well I royally f**ed up again
I loyally distance all my friends
And thus its so cold
Living in the rat race to genius
I know ill never make it out of this city
And I mean that, I know ill never have her
And I dont really need that anymore
I may not be the suit and tie life
But I mean, I won't make it even a day past 24
So whats life, this is all hypothetical
All optimistic dwelling, unrealistic living
But do you not love me anymore
How could you leave me with this sorrow
Does it even matter that Im depressed
Does anyone ever care unless I k** myself
You go do that, thats the majority sentiment, oh
I guess the struggle was chosen for the boy
Troubles of the world, from 08 and on
I spent the best days of my 20, in and out of hospitals
Worried doctors who never set a future for me
And so when I see the light, and when I made it so far
I mean I shoulda just expired, thats what I think in my darkest hour
Chorus
Outro
Tranquille