My virgin wrists look for some pain to borrow
My open mouth looks for some sh** to swallow. Anticipation of regret
It's coming tomorrow
Shaped by your hand, do your best to make me hollow
I lie awake. Play out the day's mistakes
I need a reason to start this day
Am I the only one who feels this way?
Am I the only one afraid to face...
It's not your fault-It's mine. I'm guilty of your crime
At least for you it's true. I hurt myself just to lie to you
I hurt myself just to make it smooth
I swallow gla** and smile. Just to please you
Just to impress you
Never felt so alive as when I've felt like dying
Never fell so hard as when I failed at trying
The only friends I need are ink and privacy
Living in fears. Feeling inferior
Acid burns in the back of my throat
I think I swallowed my heart. That's what it feels like
Eyes are papercuts
Salt burns my mind. Your eyes are razor blades
Cut me like suicide. Your eyes are razorblades
Sometimes it hurts just to be alive
Please don't recognize this fear
Swallow some bravery and go for it all
Beat my fist against the wall. The wall keeps winning
And the room starts spinning
Easier to make noise than to stare straight ahead
Easier to hide than to get out of bed
Pick myself up one more time
Sometimes it hurts to try. Your eyes are razorblades
Cut me like suicide. Paralyze me with fear