I spent a half-life staring faceless, wearing a crown a bruises made up of the things I am not
A noose knotted with past regrets that rub my throat raw
So I cut myself loose from my own expectations
With pride I wear that neckline scar
It's funny how anger tastes a lot like fear
Sitting on my tongue I keep catching my reflection in mirrored faces ones that shine unwillingly in light that is not their own
But i keep my flame hidden hold it pressed between worry, narrow and alone
My feet hidden in the present hands slowly a future untold and aching to a crying rhythm searching for a home
I've been burning the candle at both ends
(I'm going crazy)
Chewing on my tongue to keep myself silent
So afraid to let anyone know this war that I am fighting
I wish I could return to the time when this all started but I've felt this way forever
I've always been my only target
Trace the lines and find out where they lead
Dismantle me
Drive my head into a wall
Trying to figure out the point of it all
Am I insane or is there a purpose?
Offing myself will never be worth it