[Verse 1: RuMeal]
I'm gripping the grain, thinking & driving while switching lanes
I don't wanna live in vain for decisions I've made through pain
Going through something's in life were p**y & henny will make it feel alright
Things I've had before but never really felt this nice
Friends & relatives tell you how much you're not same
Now I'm facing the mirror just hope I don't see years of pain
Everything that I had once feared is everything I became
Got me feeling ashamed to live on while bearing my father's name
But I'm a get it, I promise I'll get it
I guarantee you'll be proud once all my days are finished
& everyday I wake up I view as a new beginning
If you go for it you'll get it that's something I'm apprehending
Aiming for my dreams planning my point of attack
Bang, bang, I just hope opportunity shoots back
Formal on instrumentals but promise I never slack
In my train of thoughts, tryna get my life on track
[Hook: Neil]
Cause it's so hard
Living to fill a dream, pursue this by any means
My mental states that I'm a king
It's not far
Illusions of finer things, & gifted the grander scheme
I'm just saying who we are, it's so hard
& though we're not perfect, the pain so worth it
But it's not far, it's not far
Cause it's not far in the distance
[Verse 2: RuMeal]
& I'm observing life as I'm an*lyzing my current state
Tired of living in struggle I need to move of my current state
The sky's the limit I'm tryna reach past the limitations
Making new connections while keeping all my affiliations
I'm working hard on a path to become a world star
While others satisfied with their comments & views from worldstar
I can't lie I want money, cars, & video vixens
But can't let the vices get in the way of all my ambitions
I'm superstitious in beliefs my dreams are on the way
There's no more that I need to say I'm looking forward to better days
Cause I don't wanna be stuck in my own world
Were I'm distracted by beautiful women in diamonds & pearls
Plus life's a beautiful thing until it gets wasted
Having you contemplating change because it's hard for you to face it
I'm telling you my wrongs that took a while for me to indicate
I see the bigger picture, now I hope this helps you illustrate
[Hook:Neil]
[Verse: Head Band]
Right out the gate tell you like this
Never would I ever think my life would take a right off the righteous
Now my nights filled with alcohol & nitrous
Shamed to admit, how in the hell did I invite this
Demon in to my blood, screaming in to my soul
Singing about it even makes me cold, sh** you ain't know
But there's gotta be something on the other side
The only thing I have is my love, good vibes & my pride
Great family, always keep the tetrahydrocannabi
No plan for me, the only medication that can handle me
So I light my spliff each night
& practice my peace right
Keeping the energy flow, backing attention off & letting me go
Better than ever before, my third eye's open for my indigo
That's why I'm spreading my life for the fallen
I'm spreading my light for the falling
[Hook: Neil]