I don't know what i should do
Ive been trying everything and nothings really working
Maybe i should let it loose
But living like that really only hurts ya man i caught up
In these circles with these all these people know who do not like me
Yeah they despise me, its not surprising but if i asked them they they would keep quiet, probably deny it
Like why you hide it, ill keep on trying
Knowing you hate it
I keep on writing, trying to make it
Don't care bout dying, this is what saves me
Through all the trials
Iim always smiling while my mind is on some violence
Try to fight it but it heightens with the slightest type of slighting
I get spiteful, recognizing that my vices got me strangled by the throat
See the anger comes and go, but more so lately its been home
Im on my own, and every day i feel more restless
Yeah I worry so much that i feel obsessive
Just wanna taste what real success is
Where god at, got a million questions
Like why my sis diagnosed with MS
Like why not me i could handle all that
I could take that stress, i don't have any kids
Music got me missing all the family events
I don't know what i should do
Ive been trying everything and nothings really working
Maybe i should let it loose
But living like that really only hurts ya man scratch the surface
Nah i can't remember all the memories we been through
Every single day of life is like waking from benders
Don't intend for it to end but damnit its been a minute
Too be real I'm having days that i start feeling like I'm finished
Last year damn near quit I'm really happy that i didn't
Cause id only back and always regret it
Gets hectic, can't panick, get to ya, don't let it
Can't exit, more effort, more effort, more effort
No way i'll accept defeat
Said it all before, Id rather rest in piece than to
Full speed ahead, and never second guess
On a quest of stress, but never settling
I can be what you need you will see
Better say it right yeah the names sallee
I'm looking around and you all look alike
And the music always seem to be same old thing
Why every picture you don't like live
I swear it only matter if the hook gives a vibe
I got a problem i know i can't seem to handle it
Shake up the mix and protest the establishment
Say that they care but i know that inaccurate
Just wanna smile and a shot for the camera lens
Man i swear living like this is so hazardous
Don't know what to do but keep chasing after it