She's cutting out the bruises Forgetting her excuses For being here again With a suitcase packed and waiting by the door In her head Convinced herself she hasn't lost enough to quit But tonight she lays here thinking "What if I just left In the middle of the night Back to California And never looked back?" [Chorus] She'll fantasize about it Every single day But she can't find it In her heart to run away And no one's listening With Northern Ma**achusetts On his knees to stay He's begging "Please, oh, baby, please, I can explain It won't happen again" He's putting out the fires
And he's making her believe He's really changed this time But it's obvious it's just another line Lapse and relapse And again she lays beside him thinking "I'll pretend In the middle of the night My eyes are closed, I'm sleeping But I won't come back" [Chorus] It won't happen again How long can this last? The final straw was the hospital At least she told herself that But she just can't find the strength to end it I just left In the middle of the night Back to California I'll never look back [Chorus] It won't happen again