when i was younger i would say things like
'i wish everybody had a video camera filming them
so they could see how stupid they are'
'stupid' meaning
we are hurting each other
and it is difficult to see it
but if we need cameras
to feel the weight of ourselves
we will only feel
less 'real'
like untagging your name
from facebook pictures
or getting 'obliterated' every night,
waking up with chunks missing
from your pillow
we should sit in a room
and not say anything
we should sit in a room
and let pieces of the ceiling
fall onto us, unflinchingly,
as our faces strip off
layers of themselves.
maybe,
but if you want
to go buy cigarettes
i will probably make
the walk with you.
excuse me
for all things
i think i want