[Verse 1] f** it, where do I start? Do I make a remark about my life in the dark? And all the sh** they don't know, like I'm an f**ing addict Tragic that it worked out this way, had it happened any other way, I would've spat it But I'm just laying around Vision blurry, I'm not happy, 'nother pill, if not They carry me to hospital and have feeling like a f**ing junkie But they ain't been through what I've been through, how the f** they judge me? Plus I'm only on the downers, is what I tell myself Like, the highs was any lower, I should belt myself And all this time I've been I working with rap I don't talk to many people cos they circles of rats, f** Lose my mind when I think into sh** And every pill that I pop, memories sink and dismiss Whats the difference I spit like theirs a gun to my head Leave my life in the booth feels like a struggle for breath [Hook] Gotta fight on ain't no way to beat me Feel like I'm locked away somebody gotta free me I'm just lookin' out the ocean as the waves break And back at me and b**bs were eating off the same plate We had a dream you told me man you gotta chase that In Australia you know I came and saved rap To where I was then to where I am now Its a miracle cause rapping like my pen pal [Verse 2] Keep yourself together, will the fans ever dismember? I fluke around my clever no one's snooping through what better That's my confidence boost after popping a few At least I'm honest to you but f** a promise I'm through what? Is that letting them down? After six albums in they can't question the crown And it's crazy that I'm still at the front I was popping a hundred and eighty six Xanax a month And that was six a day now I'm currently confused C'mon take it back tell me what was the wrong move People ask me if I've beaten it yet Cos I've had heaps of f**ing help is there a reason to stress?
Tryna get my teenage years like they never left But they gone f**ing Scott get it through your head Maybe I ain't ready for the world just yet Gotta take a pill to handle all the success [Hook] Gotta fight on ain't no way to beat me Feel like I'm locked away somebody gotta free me I'm just lookin' out the ocean as the waves break And back at me and b**bs were eating off the same plate We had a dream you told me man you gotta chase that In Australia you know I came and saved rap To where I was then to where I am now Its a miracle cause rapping like my pen pal [Verse 3] So I'm hitting the road and a brave face for the stage And no one's taking my place they never hate to my face I could've fell into bits but I'm too strong for this sh** I got a long list ticking off all of what I can get Ain't been wrong yet sh** I give you my life And social medias a joke it's how you live in your mind But me I'm in the real world still reppin' C-Town Even though I moved and I'm living by the beach now To my girl jesus christ how I thank you You watched me fall you were there you never break you Helped me up when my legs f**ing gave way You was holding me in hospital the same day I cave ways for these rappers do they understand? It's obvious I'm rocking gold they rocking rubber bands I'm-a fight through everything I've come against I'm-a winner though you knew it don't you come and test [Hook] Gotta fight on ain't no way to beat me Feel like I'm locked away somebody gotta free me I'm just lookin' out the ocean as the waves break And back at me and b**bs were eating off the same plate We had a dream you told me man you gotta chase that In Australia you know I came and saved rap To where I was then to where I am now Its a miracle cause rapping like my pen pal