[Verse 1]
An emotional dead n***a living hater in the near
After the shots, you hear him run against the fear
All the tear channels leaking like a broken rubber
Drugs fail to ease the pain, man that was his only cover
Looking for the fresh air, choking when the sirens
Bring him back to reality, lost all the Cali weed
Daydreaming insanity, stripper without the vanity
All you hear is profanity, happened to Christianity
Now he in the cell, apologizing and talking to God
Like it's the only spell, cause he going through hell
Tend to be egotistical with his intelligence
But doubting himself when he get with that ambivalence
Crashing the scene, like they crushing his dream
Losing his mind but all he want is a gleam
Lil n***a feeling like a crack in the seem
And all he sees is the blood on the man in the scene
[Chorus]
I get by, by myself and get high
In the mind state, you live and you die
n***as start to cry, piss and moan
Doing everything just to get by
Then I look for the answer up under the sky
Living out a life of s**, bringing in the cashed checks
Every night he coming home resemble a train wreck
Reminiscing with a six pack on the black deck
Look up under the sky, realize he just a black speck
[Verse 2]
All his life running round talking like a G
But his momma know him better n***a ain't no fooling me
Caught the world, turn around, b**hes standing all around
Climbing out the box but ain't nobody want a lost and found
Every little thing the f**ing life that he'd be going through
Didn't realize that everything he knew was really true
Eyes painted blue, like he losing his identity
No damn authentity, happened to all the memories
Only felt the pain of the life he was living
Didn't till his mind started giving in
Peer pressure setting in, taking sh** from all the friends
Thinking bout the positive but then he start to sin again
Crashing the scene, like they crushing his dream
Losing his mind, but all he want is a gleam
Lil' n***a feeling like a crack in the seem
And all he sees is the blood on the man in the scene
[Chorus]
I get by, by myself and get high
In the mind state, you live and you die
n***as start to cry, piss and moan
Doing everything just to get by
Then I look for the answer up under the sky
Living out a life of s**, bringing in the cashed checks
Every night he coming home resemble a train wreck
Reminiscing with a six pack on the black deck
Look up under the sky, realize he just a black speck
[Verse 3]
His family tells him that he needs a new life
Looking round when he sees a black silver coated knife
It isn't the way, in a mind he know he really gotta stay
They told him to leave, for he rot up and decay
Not even wiling to take him to the halfway
Marks and black burns, filling him like an ashtray
Finds and learns, that he really isn't hombre
Another day pa**ed tryna cover with a chambre
On the inside it Kinda feel like "I'm beaming"
But the rents thinking every rapper's a demon
Couple days ago he kinda thought that he was dreaming
Reality hits hard, gotta find a meaning
Wish I could tell you I really like how I'm living
Wish I could tell you that I enjoy what I'm given
Wish I could tell you I wake up and feel driven
But all I can say is I really wanna be forgiven
[Chorus]
I get by, by myself and get high
In the mind state, you live and you die
n***as start to cry, piss and moan
Doing everything just to get by
Then I look for the answer up under the sky
Living out a life of s**, bringing in the cashed checks
Every night he coming home resemble a train wreck
Reminiscing with a six pack on the black deck
Look up under the sky, realize he just a black speck