(Piano Keys Playing)
Long gone are the days that we did this for fun amongst each other
I like that beginning line, cuz' see every sentence I construct is constructive
But the world just tends to see the negative and choose to obstruct it
True not every black male has to be a rapper to make it, or live successful
But, I choose to rap because my life is a Stress-ful and I, feel this is the only way I can say it
Everyday I wait patient, thoughts going back and forth mind pacing, like "When will I ever make it?"
I always answer myself "But I guess that's never when you're trying to be the greatest,"
Spending hours, days, weeks, months, listening to J. Cole, and Wale sh**, and Jay sh**
And Wayne sh**, and Drake sh**, and Kanye sh**, like "f** do I even have what it takes, sh**"
Just sent the girl of my dreams a text the other day, to let her know I'll never change
But it seems we can't even hold a conversation, I guess sh** changes, when feelings are involved
She went from my, senior inspiration to, I doubt I could look at her in her face sh**
I guess I just gotta use that as motivation
Bros say she'll come around when you stop chasin'
But truth is, I'm really not that patient
Should I move on or just wait? sh**
And my mind'll tell me its only pride, she ain't tryna fit in with a bunch of women that are on me
But i'll never really know cuz' she never really say it
And I be stressing over that till', some bad b**hes come around and all those sincere thoughts are replaced with
"which one of these hoes is facing?" And even I feel its a shame sh**
And I ain't perfect and them b**hes is bad and they willing to f** and I'm on the same sh**
While all I'm really tryna' do is give word to those who are willing to hold me down
As I take this leap of faith cuz fate, is a crash course and I swore to myself i'll never break, sh** (sigh)
When I try to be the change in the world I wanna see
Then I end up like "f** it, if they ain't changing, I ain't changing,"
So how do I deal with it?
I guess I can only keep it as real as I feel it can get
And on the other hand
I'm tryna' stay away from temptation, but nowadays I'm hardly praying
And I just pray the lord understands
But looking from how far I came to get to where I stand, I now understand
That life can only be what you make it
From the hood n***as who clap iron just cuz' that's the way they were raised
To the beautiful ladies who say "f** love, get laid, get paid, cuz all these n***as will never change,"
Maybe there can be a brighter day
Amen
Welcome to my world...