I have been blessed
so everyone says
but no one could've guessed
how it all ends
I am growing bigger
emotions swelling more each day
a constant finger on the trigger
just wanting to fly away
unbearable pain
no air coming in
everything to gain
even a sin
blood everywhere
emotions awry
don't know
how much more I can bear
I still think I want to die
everything finally comes out
I am, once again empty inside
and still I have no doubts
I know what I did was right,
for me