[Verse 1 Jeremy Martian]
I swear I love hip hop and I could never do it wrong
But when I dropped that last song my boy hated that sh**
I guess I really ain't sh**, he said I have potential
But I'm throwing it away like I'm not trying to be successful
Constant pressure, feeling like this albums gon' flop
Constant stressor, should be a better son to my pops
Deep depression, pretending like I've never seen an ending
Some time I ask myself wheres god?
Maybe I should quit rap pick up a second job
Drop outta school, loans are running long
And I'm coming up short, seems like all hopes lost
Conversations of cost and we never have enough
Girl probably found a better man, I already gave it up
Gram in the hospital I never see my mom cause I'm working late nights
Or I'm f**ing round with hoes though I know I'm not living life right
[Hook]
[Verse 2 Jeremy Martian]
No I don't rap for myself for the fame or the glory
Its the only way out of this life's purgatory
Just another chapter of this life's horror story
So turn the page, so many wasted days
Funny thing about times you never get it back
And I'm probably going to hell for all i did in the past
So I'd be lying if I said I'm not afraid of d**h
And I can't get by on these $10 an hour checks
Lord! Lord! why have you forsaken me
I can't stand to see my fam' struggling financially
No I haven't been to church what do you want from me
An offering a prayer maybe psalm 23?
If I was created in your image then why am I imperfect
And why is nothing working
Pour my heart in these verses hoping for a reception
Poured my heart into this verse I hope you get this message
[Hook]
[Verse 3 Jeremy Martian]
Trying to have a wife and kids so I just can't live my life like this
Not trying to learn what lifeless is so i just can't live my life like this
Down on my luck, no 4th leave on the clover
One sided love, well at least that's closure
Two sided sword, I feel like I really know her
This cold wind blows as my cup runneth over
Let the storm go by its only cloudy for the moment
Let story unfold, and put these plans into motion
Play the next episode kick back and blow doja
Swear my sh** pop your sh**? diet cola
If my sh**s not hot these b**hes don't love Sosa
You know I hate being sober to, nothing worse than a sober you
Staring at this ocean view trying to get closer to
The position that i want to be
Jersey number 23, buzzin' like a honey bee
MVP, its funny what these eyes can see
Could you see that i can be what i require of me
So heat the kettle, keep it with the fundamentals
Brick to your dental, dick to her menstrual
Bullet in the temple of any instrumental
Bang, I'm still feeling like the mane
And I feel like the worlds in my hands
I'm sorry god but I don't give a damn
This is who I really am, can't you understand
Wrote this song to anyone whose felt lost
Everyone I've ever come across
You can play it when I'm gone