[Verse 1: SPM] It's after midnight while I let this pen write In my cell it's just me and this dim light As my thoughts get spilled on a notebook They shot my homie and I told his girl don't look Cause if she saw what I saw it would've haunted her I heard the paramedics laughing with the officer I guess they see it as just another dead body And I know it hurt when his daughter said, "Mommy Where's daddy? I ain't seem him in a long time." How can mommy talk, she can't even stop crying The punchline I tomorrow may never come That's where the cops get 187 from It means murder not d**h by natural causes It means homie's clothes redder than Santa Clause's In Hillwood many dies facing obstacles I thank God it's not me in that pile of skulls [Hook: Carolyn] Slugs around the block boys Thugging til they drop laws Putting G's on lock So we flush it when they knock Caught up in the system These haters play the victim Wanna see us fall Like dead pictures on the wall [Verse 2: Jak Da Ripa] I saw the reaper in my sleep so I might got a d**h wish When vultures come around I react so selfish If you ain't out of the hood you probably think that I'm crazy Lot if n***as in jail or they pushing up daisies, I'm True to myself, this the way God made me Love my momma to d**h cause she's the one that raised me So many mother f**ers dropping out this sh** like flies
Heard a friend of mine just committed suicide Left his family behind, found him hanging from the ceiling Eyes wide open I just can't imagine the feeling So many funerals, here I am in all black Prices put up on my head, so I'm packing a strap When my life is on the line I bring them k**ers out I find your residence and bring the drama to your house Now all that's left is a memory of your existence Dead pictures on the wall, bloody murders my vision [Hook: Carolyn] [Verse 3: SPM] They found my homie Desperado in the garbage heap Wrapped up, throat slit, man the scars are deep That day it felt like the whole city was crying Lil D if you hear me n***a give me sign That dude that had murdered you got twisted by Jason Had to tell you cause I know that y'all in different locations Have you seen Lil Lex? The other day he was k**ed n***as don't got no hustle had to take what he built I'm afraid to even open up today's newspaper Cause the crow's taking souls like the old show maker It's enough to make you blow up, throw up, or go nuts My people dying and I f**ing love them so much My homie's brother got k**ed in a car chase Cops tried to pull him over back on Park Place He hauled a** but it ended when he crashed his Taurus And he had were some mother f**ing traffic warrants [Hook: Carolyn]