have you ever felt so alone in a room full of people that just admire you?
it's overwhelming to see the people all lie to you
i s** it up for the fact that i have to keep it movin'
and for my reasons happiness ain't why i pursue it
i sit alone in my bedroom and wonder what i'm doin'
i think about the fans i'm gaining but the friends i'm losin'
i push away the people tryna get close to me
and try to reel in all the people who don't even know me
i have issues with trust can someone please show me?
how to do it the right way i'm f**in' lonely
never forget none of the words that she ever told me
why everybody wanna hug me but nobody holds me?
i've lost a part of me to someone that i used to hate
it reminds me of the music that we used to make
ironically i ended up not even bothered by it
happiness was really close it was just hard to find it
yeah and to the girl that was a part of me
thank you for everything but it's time you grew a part from me
i thought that everything we've ever been through
would help you understand but none of it don't mean sh** to you
for that i bid you adieu
just remember all our sh** together i been through it too
maybe life isn't as bad as it seems
cause a nightmare eventually turns into a dream
in this rap game there's only one policy
aim for the stars and i never took astrology
accept no apology so much stress on top of me
don't care bout what you do with them just please get it far from me
since i was a kid i seen my own d**h
no stress lost in an alley see my own breath
mentally i'm lost in my heart i'm feelin' hopeless
see my murderer just getting closer with the process
after everything i've learned
what i thought was spittin' fire i ended up getting burned
this music would cause me drama and sh** that i didn't need
i'm starin' into the mirror and i don't know what i see
confusion is a step into depression
you know it when you even start to question your reflection
i would desire attention and for affection
until i say my confessions i'll never see my progression
you talk a lot but i don't understand your sentence
so i don't follow you even if you try to mention
my name you would keep it in your conversations
if we're really a team where is the cooperation?
i live in obama's nation
people laughin' at me cause i'm an obamanation
no longer racin' for people who aren't chasin'
their dreams cause a nightmare is only what they're facin'
been betrayed so many times i'm not a quitter
cause revenge is only sweet if they betrayal tasted bitter
f** 'em all none of 'em are friends to me
an old friend still can turn into your newest enemy
what the f** you tellin' me? i ain't even listenin'
the truth hurts it can leave the human heart cripplin'
the fact you was a long time friend
told me what you're tryna start i should really try to end
but to be honest you was a part of my game
to show me what i tell you what you tell her is it the same?
i'm paranoid of the people i even trust now
used to give a f** but i don't give a f** now
i never take my eyes off a ba*tard
cause everyone will stab you only if you're facing backwards
and 2 people i know they're the best wit it
i'll take the knife out of my back stab ya chest wit it
cause i don't need to betray you if i don't like you
you should worry bout what i'm doin' not what i might do
my trust is something easily abused
cause it's hard to gain and very easy to lose
but your betrayal's not what i predicted
they told me stay away from you but i had resisted
a natural emotion lasts only 12 minutes
so that means that my depression is mostly self-inflicted
after 12 minutes how you feel is what you wanna feel
depression is my happiness i just try to keep it real
i go to sleep every night cryin' my eyes out
wondering when the f** all the pain will ever die out
the eyes are the windows to the soul
so i always make sure that i keep my blinds closed
if i should really die
i'll be lookin' down from heaven watchin' my funeral just to see who'd really cry
i'm glad y'all can witness greatness before the final stages
life is a book i'm too scared to turn the pages
a dream is a wish that your heart makes
and a nightmare's the evil when your heart breaks
been walkin' for too long in this dark place
and i never win whenever i feel my heart
always ended last in the hearts of many
but my music landed great in the hearts of plenty
lord tell me all this pain that you send me
lemme know if all of my struggles will really help me
in the future i been abused to the
point that i don't know where is my sanity i'm after peace
i treat all of my lyrics like a masterpiece
it's sad to see somebody mad as me
walkin' around livin' a life i should be grateful for
i look at life and say "it's them on why i hate you for!!!"
the demons in my dreams are chasin' after me
they follow me when i wake up i see 'em in reality
they ask me if i'm okay
i really don't want your condolence
i'm acting like i'm okay don't interrupt my performance
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